When I was about ten years old I heard the term bleeding heart. I didn’t know what it meant other than some possible bad medical condition that went far beyond my young comprehension level.
As I grew up, this phrase was tossed at me… a lot.
Why?
Because I’m like that girl on The New Star Trek TV series (which is now the old New Star Trek TV series) who felt and took on every swirling emotion around her.
I’ve always found it hard to read or listen to sad stories.
The sadness attaches itself and becomes part of me and I can do nothing to stop it.
No amounts of ‘Just let it go’s’ can chase them away until my brain says uncle and gratefully releases the images.
I’m genetically and un-futuristically flawed.
Sue me.
I can remember every bad thing I’ve ever heard on the news and think of them years later when, clearly, they should have been erased by all the daily crap that goes on in my life.
You’d think anyway.
I don’t read the news and I stay away from child horror stories. Those suffocate me the worst.
As you know, most of the time, I can stamp out these images with laughter. Laughter at me, laughter with me…laughter at you…whatever it takes.
It is the best and only way….
For me anyway.
This week, my whole heart went out to a fellow blogger.
This week, I think we all wore her sadness.
And although I do a really good job in keeping my well-worn, emotional cape deep in the coat-check, sometimes it emerges all on its’ own.
Damn lazy Attendants.
Can’t help it. It’s as much a part of my own personal makeup as the laughter.
Daffy, I hope draping some of my random thoughts over your strong shoulders and deep sadness warms you just a little.
We all have you in our hearts.
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31 comments:
Waaaaaaaaaahhhhh! :(......
So sweet. Kind kind words for The Duck! They will surely bring a smile to her face.
This is so touching and sweet! You have such a loving heart, my friend.
I hate watching the news. Its too depressing.
Daffy will love this post for sure. =)
Sometimes we are meant to hold on to things so we can truly feel and be present with the emotion.
Thank you for the kind words supporting your friend and her famiily.
Oh, Mrs. Blogalot, you made me cry!
I, too, am a super bleeding heart. I have been aching for Daffy all week. I wrote a little somethin' for her today. I love our Blog World.
That was very beautiful ...!..you are a dear, sweet and sensitive friend....the best kind to have...!...Im very honored to know you....
I sure hope someone is listing all these wonderful posts in one place.. I've seen them all over the net. One person does it.. and then another sees it.. catches the story..posts the love... it's a wonderful thing and I sure hope Daffy gets to see it all.. I'm totally amazed at the love .. it's not just her followers..or her readers.. it's the blogging world.. has pulled together for The Duck.. and it warms my hearts to see..
There's a difference between a bleeding heart and a hemorraging one. Can't write about her...or Monkey...Glad you did, though, and I hope in some way you've lifted her spirits. She certainly deserves it. Dare I say it? And more...
I too have seen some wonderful posts all over the blogosphere and the Queen has a wonderful idea above, it would be a great gift to Daffy I think if someone could collate all of these posts into a special album or portfolio online for her.
Your post here is definitely, in its honesty and simplicity, one of the special ones too.
Oh God, oh God, oh God...I didn't realize she'd lost her sister...already...and that little boy? Oh God...
There's got to be more to do...let us know...???
Her sister passed away? They're making funeral plans? She left behind a five year old son?
Tell me it's not true. Please.
And tell us what (little) we can do. She mentioned a scholarship fund...contributions directly to her family? Oh God...this just isn't fair.
I know. This is just awful. I think I was in some state of denial, as although I don't know Daffy I couldn't believe it could be true. But then it was. It is. So terribly sad. :(
This has been such a sad week.
The Blue Zoo did a post about her terrible loss as well. I think we can all recognize the pain of losing someone that important that unexpectedly. It's so hard to see someone else bear it.
What a beautiful post, Daffy will certianly love it.
It has been a really hard week and so many of us have wanted to take pain away from her and make it all better.
Thank you for doing this post!
I can't imagine going through losing my sister.
May God bless them all.
Your blog warmed my heart, Mel!
Girl, I'm with you on this one. I can be sap, sap, sappy as they come. Just this morning I caught the end of "Nights in Rodanthe" on TV and I was bawling hysterically. It reminded me of a long lost unrequited love of years ago. The thought of that person, 16 years later, still tugs at my heart like nothing ever has, and I suspect ever will.
Thank you for this. I was so depressed when I found out Friday.
Her poor 5 yr old daughter, I just can't stand it.
Happened so fast, didn't it? SHe was only 37...cannot get over that.
What a short life.
I'm a bleeding heart, too. Empathy is a great thing to have. I love it.
Oh no...this is me too. If I was a vampire from Twilight, I'd be Jasper. :)
I keep thinking of Daffy and her family. So sad.
I am the same way with stories and feelings. I had to stop watching Law & Order because I felt like it was MESSING with me.
I am the same way--these things stay with me. Thanks for bringing Daffy and her family into our thoughts. I am praying for them.
A sad, sad week for sure. I can't imagine what she's going through. But I know from experience that personal loss is one of the hardest things ever. I'm sure Daffy feels the love that the blog world is sending her way. What a remarkable community we have all become a part of.
***Ally
What an emotional week for her family. I can't imagine. I think this was a beautiful post.
well, i haven't been able to write about certain pain, either. Daffy's sister passing is horrible. On friday, I also lost a friend, much too young. 35. Fucking Cancer finally beat her. And she has 2 little boys. It's painful. and wrong. Just like daffy's sister.
What a touching tribute.
I read some of the posts at Daffy's blog. My heart goes out to her and her family. Shit! We bitch and moan about such insignificant crap at times and forget that life happens outside of our tiny universes.
Great line: I’m genetically and un-futuristically flawed. I can so relate.
I sympathize completely - just reading tweets about somebody's misfortunes can make me feel down all day - especially when it's someone you've built a relationship with.
zgirl was right...it did bring a smile to my face not only because I always feel a connection with your posts and responses to my comments but because I too am a bleeding heart *sad smile*. Its mostly the reason I stay away from blogs that aren't for the most part humorous....I rarely watch the news and while I've a voracious appetite for reading I don't routinely choose stories that leave me feeling emotionally drained. Never did I imgaine that I would be one of those stories. It always happens to other people, right?
I'm just now hearing about this and I am so sad for her. My heart and prayers go out to everyone in her family.
{{{{hugs}}}}
OH my god. How sad. I'm hugging both of you. I feel the same way. I can barely watch commercials without becoming a blubbering mess...and those are actors.
Lots of yummy love,
Alex aka Ma, What's For Dinner?
www.mawhats4dinner.com
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